Boredom comes to me. it feels strange. i feel lonely, but dont want to meet anyone. i feel empty that i decided to read books. it such a long time since i finished a book. 7 novels stuck in the middle. i dont know why, until i realized that i already forgot what i read so easily. that i had to read some pages before my checkpoint. i lost my excitement to know the ending of the story, even a drama or a film.
i was wondering what happen to me.
sometimes i feel so lonely, and i feel i can cry.
Back then, the memories of death made me feel i have no one here in my life. People just live in their life alone, involved in mine is not something important.
i used to start forgetting many of things. i feel i could disapeared. i feel i lost my sense. i become emotionless. Allah, im afraid of dementia so much although im still 19 years old. Because i feel so much things change in me, my bad and pesimistist cant be help anymore. my brain work worse rather than usual.
I have Allah..i have Allah
it just my bad habit of thingking too much, i hope
i need You, and you
12 September 2016, 8.36PM
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